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early bird catches the...
First person to finish that sentence, gets a, um, something.
Last entry was written while UI. Only had about 4, 5 cans. Which is good because I woke up after maybe 3 hours of sleep because of dehydration, then slept maybe another hour, and here I am. Yesterday, I got up a few hours past noon, and went out to the post office, picked up the package that J sent me (a grip of cds, with mp3's), then got my coffee, potato croquet, and the 2 main Korean papers that are distributed here, in NYC. I sent 4 resumes out over the weekend - no call. Called a few places yesterday in response to some ads - already taken. Can you believe that shit? My mother comes home, suggests that I find a job. I say in disbelief, what do you think that stack of paper is for? wipe my ass when we run out of toilet paper?
So I'm up. I'll go get the paper soon along with some coffee and make more calls. I need to lower my standards or something. Ahh fuck. Yesterday, I saw the "cafe" section and my eyes lingered a while on that section. Desperation, will do that. Fancied the idea of responding to one of those ads, where they pay for your airfare, and go work at a "cafe" in Hawaii. I always thought that girls turn to prostitution because of laziness. I still believe that. And if I turned to one of those ads, or something of that sort, I'd try to justify myself by saying that, i have no other choice, or, i'm desperate, but in reality, I'm only cultivating the terrible element of indolence. Yes, admittedly, I'm lazy. And I'm thankful to know that I am not any different from those girls.
Socrates, or someone, said some shit like, know thyself, right? It's something I heard in church; not in school. Anyway, I don't judge, because I know that I am the same as you; that I am capable of being that joe in prison. I think the scariest part about Man is when you don't know your own reflection. How people think that they are incapable of murdering someone. You can only control yourself when you know your own image. Why do you think we look at the mirror daily? Have you looked in the mirror today? And I don't mean a piece of glass.
On a unrelated point, ever feel so in sync with a person, yet so distant? And no, this time, it's not about the geographic location.
p.s. it's nice to be with someone that doesn't try to jump ya, every chance he gets.
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